Just when I think I’ve put the fear behind me, it rears its ugly head again.
Do you know what triggered my fear of the unknown this time?
An innocent Facebook post from a friend reminded me of some of what we are giving up to go on this trip. She just finished her basement and posted some gorgeous photos of it with its brand new fireplace, brand new furniture… brand new EVERYTHING.
So I start to think again about the fact that we are giving up a predictable life in the suburbs, complete with all the comforts that come with it, for the great unknown. My mind begins to race again…
We’re about to quit our jobs to homeschool our kids and take off to the other side of the planet (which we’ve never been to before, in case you were wondering.)
With 1 piece of carry-on luggage each, and a large suitcase that will be checked baggage.
People do this every day, right?
Then all the things that worry me about this trip start racing through my mind:
I get scared that one of us will catch some exotic disease while we’re away and suffer horribly – or what if Paul and I both get really sick at the same time and there is no-one to help us since everyone we know will be on the other side of the planet? (Our poor kids!!!)
I get scared that we’ll have horrible tenants in our house who will cause us all kinds of stress while we’re away (we’re renting it out while we’re gone.)
I get scared that our property manager will ruin everything somehow (you know, maybe they’ll pick horrible tenants, or maybe a calamity will happen to our house and they won’t deal with it fast enough and everything will be a mess…) It’s SO HARD to trust someone else with an important job like this.
I get scared that we’ll fail to sustain this travel lifestyle permanently after all, and we’ll have to re-enter the rat race, which will be a CRUSHING disappointment. Even more so since we’ll have had a taste of freedom to compare it to.
Whoa. Deep breath.
Getting Past the Fear
So whenever this happens the only thing that works to get over it is to remind myself of all the reasons why we are leaving everything behind.
We’ll have more time to spend with each other while the kids are growing up – I don’t want to wake up one day to see them all grown up and feel like we wasted their childhoods rushing through life, failing to enjoy enough of our time with them.
We’ll be able to see more of this big beautiful world that we live on – there is SO much of it that I’m dying to see and I can’t stand the thought of missing out on it.
We’ll want to live life on OUR terms.
And if that’s not enough to get over the fear…
I remind myself that we’ve done so much research that the odds of anything REALLY BAD happening are pretty small.
Where We’re At Now
So the planning and preparations continue.
Our itinerary is now officially set in stone from July 1st to mid-September. Flights and accommodations have all been booked.
We’ll start off in budget-busting Hawaii for a couple of weeks, then onwards to SE Asia.
Paul will be giving his notice at work in about a week – he plans on working only until the end of May. I’ll be handing in my notice at work soon after. We both have no idea what to write in our letters of resignation, but I’m sure we’ll figure something out.
We applied for several new credit cards for the purpose of accumulating more Aeroplan points for future use (there were some SWEET sign-up bonuses, so we couldn’t resist!)
We will start showing our house to potential tenants on May 1 – hopefully it won’t take long to find someone suitable.
We’re still finalizing our decision on which health insurance plan to sign up for.
The other day I made $51 off one of my websites, all in ONE DAY! If only I could do that every day – it would help fund our dream of long-term travel nicely.
Stay tuned… more to come…